What’s This Got to Do With Me?

When I was little, life did not seem as complicated.  I would go to school, play outside for the rest of the day and then go to bed.  My life was easy.  However, now my life is so hectic and chaotic that I really don’t have many pure happiness moments as I did.  School is a HUGE stresser for me.  The social, mental and physical aspects of school are very time consuming and stressful.  School has forced me to grow up in ways that I was not ready to grow up.  I stopped playing outside, playing with barbies and other things like that because I didn’t have the time.  When I did have time I was to emotionally overloaded that the only thing that made me feel nothing was t.v.   As my body was changing to a teenagers natural sleep schedule (going to bed later and waking up later)  I was having a hard time waking up in the morning to go to school.  Even though I was consistently going to bed at around 10:00-10:30 I was still exhausted because my body needed more sleep.  Not having enough hours to sleep was affecting my physical and mental state.  I had a very hard time focusing in class and running in PE.  School was hard for me in other ways to.  During class I would have unforgiving teachers that would yell at you if you “back-talked”  when really you were only respectfully questioning something that they did.  With some teachers it seemed like they thrived on being able to have power over us.  They don’t see you as equals which is very damaging to a child’s education.  In PE I couldn’t show my shoulders or belly for fear that the boys would not be able to control themselves, thus sexualizing  women and making us into objects that should bend to the rules of a man.  Even having the fear of being dress coded in the halls or a class is a constant worry or stresser.  The unfairness of it all hits a peak when you see the boys don’t even have to wear shirts in PE and they can wear tank tops to school.  School may claim that they are trying to enforce “professional dress”  but then why are we allowed to wear jeans to school?  Jeans are not very “professional”.

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